The 5 mile walk.

I took off from home , plugged the music in my ear n started walkin aimlessly, letting destiny lead the way. As always, my mind never ceases to think.So, a lotta things came to my mind while on the way and I kept gettin deeper and deeper into the "FUCKED UP PHILOSOPIES" my mind could generate.

At 22 years of age, i stand alone been through almost all the shit life could throw at me. So, if u think ur life is fucked, you probably have to give it a second thought.But let me tell you, I made this choice. I took this path. So, trust me when i say I have had the best times ever, but at a heavy price which I do not regret.Thats the reason I don like to crib bout the shit in my life. Cuz well, SHIT HAPPENS. Deal with it.

Life is simple.

NOw isn't that a statement which puts all the neo-philosopers to shame...or maybe enrage them.But yes, thats wat i realised. So here goes my theory/philosophy.

The entire universe....our lives, loves, hates...everything is one freakin big illusion. I mean it wen i say illusion. Love is an illusion jes as good as hate is. In life, there are basically jez two things which exist. Want and Need. Our decisions,choices and the rest of the shit will all fit in either of the two catagories. Its all in the head. Wen you cut off the illusions built across every emotion, it only comes down to logic. But not everythin can be defined by logic.Right ?? Well, partly true. Unless I can come up wit logic for everythin, I'll have to accept the fact that not everythin can be logical. COming to the point, We are born in this system. A completely self sustaining system. Systems and system inside systems. Thats how it works. We coem into this world with a specific purpose. Everyone have to fulfil this purpose, cuz the system needs it. It will force it out of you no matter what you do. So, when you say life is full of shit, or at times when you feel you're beaten...its probably because you are strayin away from your Path. Everyone IS UNIQUE. And this is the basic theory behind it.

Now coming to the part where we all haev to deal with the shit, I just hope this will be of some help to whoever reads this. Let me tell you, wat I say now isnt goin to make ur life any easier.It will just make it simpler.

There are three things which you can never change. SO, acceptance is the only way. The three things are : People , Places and Circumstances. You see, we have a primal fear of the future when it comes down to these things. People are goin to remain the same until and unles they want to change. It happens from within. SO till then, they wont change no matter what. Places, obviously we cant change. And circumstances, we can try manipulation, but its just so much more simpler if we accept it. You see. Nothing goes waste. Everything Happens for a Purpose. And believe me when i say, it happens cuz its meant to happen. Which brings me to the next part of the philosophy.

Chaos theory. I guess most of you will have heard of it. But let me put it in lay man terms. Chaos theory says that a lot of things may appear random until they're seen from a much bigger perspective. Let me give u an example...a real life one. I met a guy named smiley in the rehab. Another Addict like me. It was his first visit to the rehab too. His parents had bought a pair of slippers for him when he was in the 9th grade and he never used it cuz well, he just dint like it. He had forgotten bout it for bout 5 years now.And well, he had to use it when he was in the rehab. So you see, the buying slippers when he dint want it was somethin random. It was against his wish too. But after 5 years, it is serving its purpose. As i said, everything happens for a specific purpose and at a specific time. And even though it appeared random, it is not. Thats chaos theory. There is no such thing as Random. There are no coincidences or Accidents. Its all a part of the sustainance of the system.

So, do not look back and regret the choices you've made or the decisions you've taken. It would have happened no other way. And the choice you made was the best one even though you might feel that you've missed out on somethin better.

Lotsa things still to say, but if this makes sense to anyone, just make use of it. I'll probably talk much more bout the walk later on...there'z still bout 4 miles to go .....

- AngelDust.

I close my eyes and it all comes back
in a blink, memories rush in from the past
distorted.perverted.my reality lies raped
by my conscience,i'm gagged, baffled,beaten and hate,
growz within me, ten folds with every thought
i dug my grave, but itz six feet short.

Sane . Insane . A raveged heart,
Drugged. Stoned. I'm worlds apart
See me now? or are u still blind
or do u just choose to be so kind?
Secrets. Closed behind the door
Spills again,on the tainted floor.

I'm done now with all my prayerz
The thin line, only grown grayer
Its time, i accept the reality i'm in
tired of playin this game i'm trapped within.
Will Angel's Dust, end this lore?
or is it going to be the Devil's Whore.